The small things

While doing my groceries last night, this idea came in my mind about being a mother has change me the way I’m thinking. It was fascinating watching other mother walking with their children and wondering what was their life before that. With one glance people might not think I was a socialite before especially with my 360 degree changes (yes, for some who didn’t know – I’m not Saint). Back to my topic – ‘Being a mother has change me the way I’m thinking’

As a mother I want the world to be a better place for my children (every mother does). When you are young and single you don't take notes the little thing but being older you start to see the little thing makes the different. Such as bringing your own carriage bag to the groceries or shopping to contribute saving the earth. In my tote bag I will carry this ‘Strawberry Folding Bag’ that I got from my sister in law during her son aqiqah ceremony. Best invention and cute and I see people are selling this. Get one for yourself. I never think about this when I was younger but after seeing the climate change I can’t imagine what kind of climate my children will be living in. I still remember when I was kid and we often going to Genting Highland and Cameron Highland and love the cold breeze weather in any hour or any month. But I know most of you know it wasn’t the same anymore. I still remember being there recently and not even need to wear a jacket because it’s warm. It wasn’t like that when I was a kid. I love the feeling being there when I was a kid because it makes me feel I was in Europe due to the weather. I bet some of you agree with me especially when you are the 80’s kid. So I decided to do little contribution like bringing my own bag and recycle stuff. I know some people might say “Oh its sound so emak-emak or so motherhood”. Yes, it does but I am a mother and wait until you have your own children.

Next was save the children. This problem has become from bad to worst. Last time it was children in hunger and poverty but now baby killer. I can’t even make myself looking at the baby corpse or read the papers with this kind of news. There are people angry with the government for providing a place to put the unwanted baby at the Ipoh hospital and school for pregnant teenager. But what you expect them to do? Let the killer baby problem getting worst and be the lifestyle of our children? How bad it may sound but at least it’s one of solution to reduce the number of baby killer. If you don’t like it, give a better idea not just criticize them. And please don’t say parent should raise them better. As parent now, I know most parents want the best for the children and they try hard to raise them in better environment. I have seen friends that been broad up in such Muslim way and nice environment but still pretending being goodie too shoe in front of their parent (in Malay ‘pijat semut tak mati’) but being another thing behind their parent. Not everything to be point at the parent. There are so many bad influence outside there and temptation. So we as community need to lend a hand to help the teenager. But I really mean it, if you have better idea, share it but if you don’t then shut up and let the government do their thing.

I have regrets in my life and one of it is talking back to my mother every time we have disagreement. Oh boy! It’s really a slap on the face once you are a mother. I wish I could have behaving much calmer when facing disagreement with my mom all this years. So now I rather stay quiet whenever I came across conflict idea with my mom. How angry or sad when your mom disagree with you, it’s hurtful when we talk back to them. They went through great deal to bring us to the world and I’ve been through that and realize how wrong I was toward my mom. Sometimes Aaron say thing that hurt me even though he still a kid and not knowing what he did but still it hurt me. So I can’t imagine being my mom that had to go through life with me and my sibling. We aren’t the best children in the world. But we are now trying to give the best life to them after struggling to raise us in such minimal wages especially when we always not in our best behaviour when we were younger.

There are few small thing that I have done after being a mother and I will keep continue doing it for the sake of better world for my children. Keep in mind, small thing does make a different so don’t give up.